haha my dad is goin to bring mi buy my mp3 lol so happi wa haha a... o lvl sux hate to study

lol yesterday was veri fun lol wen to song of the sea at sentosa wif jun wa thann gor haha k the show was ok ok lah lol but the water was nice lol dotz .... here is a video
is nice hahah ... den we wen to eat bens n jerrys ice cream haha 6 scoops 1 brownie n 1 banana lol .... wa reach home late sia lol but i realli enjoyed myself haha hope they did toooo ... lol stil at the bus stop was best hahah ... lovin gor gor lol dotz jia you

wa .... i give up lah everything jus sux to the core

i should jus folo her foot steps n forget everything

i jus feel like diein.... y mus dere be such things called jealousy or even hated or lair or .....
haiz haiz...
i jus feel like diein everytime any comes to mi .. i dun think i will hav any one to turn too already ... goin out wif mi was to give mi face if i were to keep my mouth shut from the first day i steped into sgs i wouldnt hav to be like wad i m now .. i freakin regreted comin into a mix sch i should hav stayed where i belong n nt some where i dun

the feelin is jus so strong i realli dun like it cuz it hurts i guess ...... wen it rains i m cryin i hardly see rainbow so i m never happy NEVER life is always full of trick n things u dun wan it to happen .... maybe tat is y god created us to hav a taste of life (ya wad crap i dun even noe wad the hell i m typin)
haiz.................................................................................


some ppl r jus gorgeous
some ppl r jus pathetic
some ppl r jus freaky
some ppl r jus perfect
some ppl r jus brillant
some ppl r jus so lucky


i guess i lie no where



i m full of hated n jealousy i guess i should be left alone

no one will ever wan to noe mi
they will regret .....
problems are all kept deep down in my heart wif no one to share it too



i should jus let it go but it is never easy cuz i treasure everthing tat is dear to mi




my heart hurts i feel like cryin




if i realli cant think positive i dun wan to suffer any more i might jus leave everything even if i m gone u won rmb mi rite i noe u won no one will no one would realize i existed onli my family maybe ... i dun even noe i exist... jean is jus a name tat is left in ur memory but the face not ........



I WAN TO RUN AWAY
THE PAIN IS JUS KILLING
I GUESS I WILL NEVER NOE WAD IT FEELS TO BE WANTED
I WILL NEVER NEVER NOE WAD IS HAPPINESS OR SADNESS
I DO NOT WAN TO BE WAD I M NOW IF I COULD I WAN TO RELIVE MY LIFE AGAIN START ALL OVER I WAN TO BE MORE PRESENTABLE I WAN TO BE A BETTER LOOKIN ONE ...... BUT I NOE I M DREAMIN




STOP LIVING IN A WORLD OR FANTASI WAKE UP DIS IS REALITY

if u are pretty u kindda dun hav to worry bout losing any thing unless ur attitude sux .......

but if u are nt pretty u tend to hav veri little self estem .... haiz sian

wa

lol today wanted to eat jack's place wif mr oei ... haha den the orchard one close down sian lor lol then in the emd wen to eat at herren lol ... basement lol ... hmmm wa full full lol mi jen jun n jin yun lol

was taken in the toilet lol



zzzzzzz so fulll haha ... thx mr oei oei oei lol thought he was sleepy lol n drank 2 cups or alcohol he still can sent us home safely lol lucky haha ... zzzzz is boring




now i at home stoning sian prelims over le mean stupid o's coming le haiz means so mani ppl wan to fight for a space in poly i dun think i can go wad i wan le sian lor ... haiz haiz haiz but i will still study hard i mus go to wad i wan must achieve my dreams n nt disappoint my parents haha .. at least risein mi up stil got reward lol .... dotz lame ... haiz haiz sad sad sad ... cry lol

i passed all my subjects at last but the total points is nt wad i expect

jus hearin name makes mi cry
imgaine seein u

i cant take stress omg i might as well give up my life haiz ... sux omg lol dotz tomolo sci mcq can be ready to fail le i wan run away from everything i dun hav confident in myself n ppl r makin it worst i dun wan attention i dun wan anything i jus wan myself to be happy happy understand .... can u make mi happy make mi smile the jean u noe is nt mi i feel so fake ....


i never likes the path i chose i never like it since the day i was born .......



it will get better it will materealistic ......... face the fact ... dun hav a big head dun wear a big hat it will cover ur face ....


i feel so ebrassed no one hav the time to jus listen to mi pouring my sorrow no one even bothers haiz i might jud go crazy one day haha lets get wait n see everyone is so busy wif o lvl haha mi free die le lor .... o lvl wad is tat ....

every ppl on earth hav a diff look

haha life freakin sux to the core....
wen u need someone by ur side to comfort u wen u r feeling down no freakin person will be at sight nvm
wen u need someone to laugh wif u n hav fun wif u all disappear nvm
wen u hav a stressful monment u feel like punchin the wall even the wall move away nvm
wen u jus feel like dieing everyone appear infront of u to encourage u too "jia you" go go go no one wan to see u present.no one .u will never understand how i feel to be used i m like the person tat after u fail on something i m the unlucky one to be ur spare tire nvm it is my life to be born a spare tire

after finding the one u always wan i will be dumbed aside forgotten n nt remembered nvm nvm nvm nvm nvm .... everyone is selfish everyone onli thinks gd things bout themelves everyone onli wan the best for themselves i admit i m a person like tat too who is nt ....but to truely find a person tat will realli nt get tired n keep giving 0% no soul is tat dumb i may be quite .. i never like to see ppl unhappy so i will cheer dem up but if i make them happi n i m nt wads the point...... no one will treasure my existance wen i m gone no one wil rmb mi its ok i learn to accept it i dun mind to be used ..... haiz life

nvm is mi

is like freakin long le lah ... since i wrote haha z....... so boring i m jus goin die of bordem .... omg i wan go out but oso broke IT IS JUS SIMPLY PATHETIC hahaz ..... borin today chem paper comfirm fail le lah i pass sci i oso happi haiz acc even more sux lor ... sian startin of prelim got confident can score 17pts now 20 pts oso hard noe earlier dunn wan study haiz .... o lvl die le lah if i realli fail dun miss mi haha cuz i will GO DIE N FORGET BOUT LIFE hate it

FISHCAKE FORGET BOUT LIFE IF I COULD FREAKIN RUN I WOULD HELP HELP ... I SO FREAKIN NEED HELP IN ALL MU SCI , HUMANS, ACC , MATH , ENG ALMOST ALL LAH DIE LE LAH

haiz dame pissed off.... monkies rox ....... i wan o lvl to faster past i feel veri stress i feel like giving up everything ....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz






if i could run i would smile