haiz i m so freakin pissed offf zzzz.. i have given up hope already lah if it is real or fake true or lie i super cannot be bothered anymore i jus dun noe wad to do i m so down n useless so dump n gone haiz ... i realli dun noe wad to do I FREAKIN GIVE UP ALREADY think it is jus so useless haiz ... i choose to belive wen i found out the true i rather pretend i dun noe anything , if i choose to nt belive i will keep thinkin wa jean u i got no comments ... jus let nature takes it course haha keep thinkin oso useless lol .... h r u to be born a girl dumb ... lol like i hav a choice lol .... no one can help mi ... all the ppl i turn to and ask all says the same thing ... ' i realli dun noe wad to say ' like wa i even more stress haiz fuck lah i realli veri pissed





how i hope i can jus lose my memory n nt toutore myself mentally it hurts ok lol zzz physically and emotionally haha jus feel like typeing lol still got wad... crazynally haha crap ...




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haiz I GIVE UP ON JEAN LOL GONE CASE LE

zzz rashes all over mi face lol so pathetic zzz dun think i will be abe to go to my frens christmas party stupid rashes spoilt all mi fun sux sux

i guess i will never be the type of girl i wanto be in the sense of dressing or anything argggg i guess i am jus the type tat should hide from the crowd argggg zzzz omg hate mi zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

eye black and bag oh my gosh tat is bad lol haha tomolo is holiday yeah sian lol shifting soon lol blog so short nth much to type mood is always bad wa hahaha

lol

u try u fail u try u fail the onli failure is if u stop tryin


for mi i dont even bother to try cuz i m one hahahaha

GORDON

it wad super fun lol to go shopping wif my bro haha dere will surely be a next time although we were realli tired but we seriously enjoyed ourselve haha ok took neo prints

haha tired zzzz omg i m freakin missing haiz lol


haha at my work place bored until i bo liao lol hahah zzzz ok hmmm so mani book hor i veri stress lol


dis is usually wad i do wen i m bored


haha so bo liao lol





haha ok ever since i started workin i keep eating omg o seriously grew fat omg i can feel the fats hahah azzzzz sian zzzzzzz i m on a strict diet lol cap

i m so thinkin i willl be having to put on specs soon omg i veri scare lol workin i hav never stared at the computer for almost 12 hours omg and onli a few hours of rest ouch i realli veri scare i dun wan to wear specs until i m old omg omg omg is so blurr wad am i typing arggggg..... dame it i m so sian lol GORDON I MISS U LOL zzzz faster come back hahaha

haha guess where i m bloging dis lol in my work place lol zzz haha can use the com secertly come blog lol zzzzz omg is so boring haha face the com zzzz i like cant be satifisd wif anything like tat pathetic lol zzz haha omg sit the whole day the butt oso bigg le haha .. zzz cant wait for christmas to come yeah lol zzz ok maybe is hari raya first i guess dun rmb lol haha holiday omg i need a break ahahaha zzzzz lol i m so bad to' eat paper'
lol gtg she is back hahhahahahahahahahah bb lol

todayn was dance performance at ucc lol took alot of pics as it might be mi last year to perform for year end sobs haha got alot of the kids pics all veri cute ok lol see see

omg i hate mi myself jus within 2 days i got freakin insulted by ppl at my dance sch my heart jus broke on the spot haiz .... dance sch hav full of 'one body two headed' ppl ... haiz I HATE MYSELF ALOT dance jus destroyed my confidence i m tryin veri hard to build haiz ..... i realli think i sux i m so gross argggggg

i jus hate mi everytime i go out wif my frens i feel so infereal i jus wish i could hide my face and nt come out forever argggg... crys it hurts so bad to be yuckzzz no matter how i try to change my look it jus gets worst and worst argggg... i jus realli feel like giving up on myself i feel veri weak haiz .. i realli dun noe i hate mi seeing girls tat r so perfect i jus wan to cry lol ... haiz haiz i wan to die

omg now is goin to be 12 in 1/2 hr time so tired jus finish dancin n omg it jus sux lol


omg beatrice from tp is so hot hahahaha .... veri hot



hmmmm

hate hate hate hate i jus wan to die wa my eyebag lol

haha i m realli startin to love my current job althought it is veri hard like one factory worker lol but i still love it a lot lol ... zzzz hmm the pay is good too lol wa hahaha ... hmmm






i think ppl r veri hard to understand compared to any thing else realli haiz every one is so fake, selfish ,self centred, and hu noes lol (it is nt realli refering to any one lol n maybe nt everyone) the ppl tat r like tat never admit it but they will push it to some other ppl worst off than dem zzzzzz haiz HUMANS omg i m one too wa hahahhahaha

i tel u i f******* hate dance alot now thx to my current dancing sch it sux big time ok the teachers dere are so f*** up although u r 17 , they still dun respect or give u face like wad the lah ppl oso got their own PRIDE the teachers are super unreasonable SUPER irritatin sux argggg so pissed zzz

they oso never say i cannot highlight my hair jus because i highlight got wrong arh idoits lah they think ppl so rich ask mi go dye back black siao one ... they demself can dye like wtf lah so pissed off wif them lah .. y did i even come back to dance should hav used o lvl and leave for good

if u hav a passion for dance because of my dance sch it can make u hate dance for live tat is how bad it is shit head.....

onli noe how to put the blame on ppl jus because they r the oldest fuc* lah they dun even respect us how they expect us to respect dem no common sense....jus because of this stupid dance makin mi nt able to go work today shit lah .... bloody hell hate dis dance sch like mad

they realli will insult u until u got no self esteem left tat is how bad they r ,
u got $$ they treat u veri good u can dance well they oso treat u veri good if u r in between u can go die if u r even poorer haiz ........ they super look down ... sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux sux

sian hate mi freakin life as usual de....... omg hitman is nice man ppl even though i dun understand the story haha... sian now sick le got stupid sore troat zzz m so weak ... sian haha yesterday wen to vivo gt fire works veri nice sia ... lol zzzz so bored woder wad am i goin to do today haha ..... life jus sux i hav given up all hope